P.S. Because Of You....

Because of you Mom I felt bad about myself my entire childhood.  Did you really think telling a little girl that she was fat and no boy would ever like her if she didn't lose weight?  Because of you Mom I know how NOT to handle my money.  Because of you Mom I never feel like I can share the good things in my life with you because you always find fault with them.  Because of you Mom I know the kind of mother I want to be with my children one day.  Because of you Mom I have learned how to put my family and friends friends first.  Because of you Mom I laugh until my side hurts when we get together.  Because of you Mom I am a stronger person.

Because of you Dad I constantly feel like I am 14 years old.  Because of you Dad I feel like I am stupid sometimes.  Because of you Dad I know the kind of man that I really should be with and not just settle.  Because of you Dad I feel special to someone.  Because of you Dad I know that I am loved.

Because of you J I have built up walls around myself.  Because of you J I don't trust men right now in my life.  Because of you J I feel like I did something wrong to mess up what we had.  Because of you J I know that it was not my fault and that you are an asshole who will never change.  Because of you J I have found my backbone and am not going to take shit from anyone anymore.  Because of you J I have my life back.

Because of you M & J I know that "true friends" don't mean the same to everyone.  Because of you M & J I have put more effort into these friendships than both of you put together.  Because of you M & J I now know that it is ok to let you go and move on without you.  Because of you M & J I know that friendships can change and that's ok. 

Because of me I am moving forward with MY life.  Because of me I took control of my weight with my band.  Because of me I am getting my happy back.