I am frustrated that my husband is not working. He lost his job eighteen months ago, hasn't really looked for another one, and then developed a back problem that has allowed him to abuse prescription pain killers. Sometimes I think the back pain is an excuse for the pain pills. I am very unsympathetic. I hide my anger pretty well. I do love him, but I don't trust him. I know he is snorting pain pills (crushed), and hiding from life.
We haven't had sex in the past 6 months or so.
Sometimes I get so mad, I want to leave. I have been having sex dreams of men, women, and always with me- at my strongest, slimmest, most bad ass future self.
Here's hoping you find that future self and the strength to become that...soon.
ReplyDeleteMaybe you shouldn't hide your anger. Have you told him if things don't change, you'll need to leave? I'm not a fan of ultimatums, but sometimes it is necessary. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Bonnie. You may need to step back and take a long hard look at your situation from the outside. Then take action.
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