I hate my life. I feel trapped, shackled, handcuffed to choices I have made. I put myself in this exact spot, for some reason that remains to be seen. I wish I could vanish. Who would miss me? Would anyone know I was gone. Not dead, just not here. I want to live but not in the manner which I have been. I stopped living my life many years ago, I need to jumpstart it. Where are those jumper cables?
I cannot breathe, I am drowning, my mental health is very fragile, I am hanging on by a gossamer thread...
I hope you find your reason. Time heals all.
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I hope you find those jumper cables soon. Maybe if you are able to make some changes, you will not feel trapped and you will start to live again. Life is beautiful, you never know where it will take you. Start small, do one thing differently today. Take a walk, call an old friend out of the blue. Buy yourself flowers for your desk. Try doing just one thing to change your routine.
ReplyDeleteOf course you would be missed! You are loved, this is hard b/c it's anon., but I really hope you find the support and love you so deserve. Please talk to someone, anyone, about your mental health -it's not to be taken lightly.
I wish I could hug you in person.
thoughts and prayers with you. I hope you find where you need to be, and don't be afraid to seek help,professionally or from friends.
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