Monday, October 25, 2010

P.S. I Feel Trapped

If I didn't have my 2 youngest, I'd be outta here, YESTERDAY.
If I had a job, and wouldn't have to worry about finances, even having the 2 youngest wouldn't stop me.
I feel fat (I'm gaining my weight back), i feel sick (I'm having migraines, panic attacks, NO energy whatsoever, i don't want to get out of bed. EVER), I hate my life right now.
He is mean, he is selfish, he is a fucking ass.
He's suppose to be my husband, my best friend, a father and an adult.
He acts 2, he runs away and won't talk, he doesn't listen, he won't try, he can't see things any different.

It's affecting me, I'm ALLOWING it, and I feel trapped. 


  1. Prayers coming your way...I'm so sorry...

  2. Is he willing to go to counseling? My husband and I had a very difficult time 7 years into our marriage and I felt like I hated him. Our 2 young children took all our energy and we had none left for each other. We did counseling (had to go through a few psychologists and psychiatrists) but finally found someone we both liked. There are reasons you married him. Please don't think I'm preaching. Obviously I don't know the details of your situation. I just know my experience and my husband and I have now been together for 16 years and we are very happy. I'm sorry you are going through this.

  3. I feel you, I really do. HUGS! My only advice is to keep doing the mental pro/con list. when you are really ready and done all those reasons keeping you now won't matter you will just be done. Everyone deserves to be happy and treated with respect.

  4. That's a hard place to be :( My thoughts are with you.

  5. I hope things get better. Counseling might be helpful. If things do not get better my advice is do not stay for the kids. They know when things are rough at home and you won't be doing them any favors by modeling a bad marriage for them.

    Now after all of that...Only you can decide whether things are repairable or not and whether this is a necessary vent or not fixable. In either case feel better!!